⁠⁠⁠Calypso

Maybe it's my own fault for allowing
a stranger in my home,
for learning to care for them so soon.
In that instant of fated forgetfulness
I lend my heart to someone new-
My curse awakens
To take them away.

A funny game Fate plays with me
for an unknown sin I pay
such a cruel fee.
Every so often
she sends someone my way
and like im Calypso,
she takes them away.

Showing me light
then leaving me in the darkness
without warning.
She laughs at my heartbreak
tragedy becomes me;
she directs the play
my soul is her stage.

Disappointment
and dispair
are her tools of sport...
I imagine I play excellently the role
of a damsel in distress
for life, my audience, it seems
loves watching me cry.

I build a fire-
as I've done everytime
the raft appears.
Obsessively, I stare into the hearth
to distract myself from my grief,
to keep thoughts of you at bay,
while you're forever lost at sea.

I should've known that
the moment was fleeting,
that our time together was too perfect,
too good to be true.
It's a law that's been set
to rule my life of chaos
People shall always leave.

I should've known
it would end up like this,
as it has always..
I hold my hand as I try to sleep
on my tear-stained pillow.
Another heart, with mine closely tied -
gone.

Holding my breath,
I wait a forever till it passes
hoping its a nightmare,
from which I will wake -
not tired, and without
this dull ache in my chest
that I feel as the sun rises.

The night is gone
and so is he,
so are they all.
I, alone on my beach
one more time,
watch the sail disappear
past the horizon.